We'll See What Happens

This is the Crestmore Manor in Riverside. So happy I stumbled upon it on a website. I really wanna get married. Every bride has an idea of what they want their magic day to look like. I know how I want it to look based off how I want it to feel. This place feels just like I imagined. I mean to a tee. I can't explain the disappointment of not havig the 500 dollars to hold the only date. Man this is so hard. And to be honest I don't think we'll have the money again for a while. Not at least a month from when I looked at it. I can't wait to start planning. Without a reception site, I can't really do any tangible planning. Hmm we'll see what happens. *Fingers crossed*

The Expected Randomness

the prodigal son

Wow Ryan I can't believe how litle we see eachother now compared to how I knew every second of your day. I'm glad to see that you have some consistency in your life now. You spent the night last night, and in true me and fashion, this morning hadn't skipped a beat. There I was waking up at 7 a.m. to you awake on the recliner about to go sleep. You said you would smoke a cigarette with me; of course asked you to wait while I make coffee. There we were, me waking up and you about to sleep. I miss you. Good to see you.

Comfortable with me

I don't know when it started, but I'm glad it did. Somewhere I found the ability to love myself. Not that I always had self-esteem issues but I feel confident and satisfied with myself and my decisions in life. I look around and feel blessed. To have love, laughter, and companionship makes all the bad things in life seem to dwindle. When I look in myself in the mirror, I am happy. May everyone everyone I know be able to find the same joy within themselves.

DISNEYLAND

bella and i waiting in line for autopia